The downside of going on holiday is always the coming back and re-adjusting to the time zone you left behind. Little Miss Jet lag is a bitch to deal with at the best of times; tag team her up with Little Miss Perpetually Exhausted and this body of mine has hit a wall with such force that it’s unlikely to bounce back anytime soon.
Feeling dog tired is hardly an unfamiliar sensation of course, but after such a lovely month away, doped up on ‘holiday adrenaline’ and achieving all kinds of impressive feats, I’d kind of forgotten how terrible ‘lupus tired’ is. I had been hoping the azathioprine would have kicked in behind the scenes and be working it’s magic by now; sadly I don’t think that’s the case.
Since staggering through Heathrow early last Friday morning, my body clock has been all over the shop. I’ve had trouble staying awake and trouble staying asleep. Each morning I’ve been waking up well before the birds put in an appearance. Not waking up and feeling productive, mind you, just waking up and laying there feeling absolutely shattered. Consequently by late afternoon, I’m forcibly peeling up my eyelids to try to keep them open.
Rather than starting to perk up as I settle back into England O’Clock, today – my fourth day home – was the weariest so far. I was so far beyond knackered that by the time I’d eaten my breakfast, I was in need of a nap. The day didn’t really progress much from there. Aside from sewing on two name tabs and labelling some school socks with a pen, all I managed to do for the rest of it was lay on the sofa and binge watch a month’s worth of Sky Plus.
It wasn’t until I wandered into the kitchen just after 8pm that I looked down and realised I’d actually forgotten to get washed and dressed this morning. Clearly, my family is so used to living with a sloth that no one saw fit to even question my lack of daytime attire.
Here’s hoping I manage to function in a more vertical position tomorrow.